Life has taught me many things...But I still don't get answers to many questions.
Sometimes, due to many reasons, I wonder why the supreme power has not created a world in which one can survive without food. In my personal opinion it is very difficult to get some food, need not be due to poverty, but due to some other reasons. I had many instances in which I cursed myself for not having the ability to starve...Our close ones may not be having enough time to cook for us, or it may be due to lack of raw materials for preparing food. Sounds silly?? But it's true....
Our education system should provide a way for students to earn their own bread. We should be able to stand on our own legs. I have had a few instances in which I was forced to sell my old textbooks to buy new ones, to give fees and all..I had gone for technical festivals and insisted on cash awards to spend for my own basic needs...I know many of you would not be having such experiences. But I personally do find it very unfortunate....It's not like, there is no one to look after me or to spend for me. But sometimes, others will forget us and the most unfortunate fact is that these others will be your intimate ones. I feel like crying when I say this. Some people may find this ridiculous saying that this may be due to the squandering nature. They cannot understand my feeling, and I don't want them to. The scholarships and aids which are given to us are not at the right time so that we have to think for other alternatives. If it had been ,then I would not have ended up in this present situation...
I still feel sorry for other people like me who would feel like this..I don't know whether there will be any one. We should be able to stand on our own legs from the secondary level onwards. Then only we can be proud of ourselves. Else we will be full of repentance. I had had many sleepless nights thinking about the same point. Sometimes the repentance would grow to such an extend that you can't stand it and you will collapse...
I know I failed miserably in making my point clear..may be due to my present mental state.